Wednesday, August 21, 2013

The weight of the world...

Usually feel like its on my shoulders. I know that phrase is so over used but it's true most days. I'm not one to complain about the cards I've been dealt but I've had an overwhelming couple of weeks and I know someone, somewhere must feel the same way.....


It started August 6th....Our trip up to Duke Children's Hospital for Jeremy...refer here to see how it went....the 3.5 hour drive there, appointments and the stay over night in a meh hotel then tests all day then 3.5 hours back.....all with a whiney, half asleep(thanks anesthesia) 7 year old and a hungry, grumpy 9 month old....this was stressful enough for the month.....BUTTTTT it got busier...

My sister came to visit (YAY) but was gone just as quick and she made the awesome decision to study abroad in Costa Rica and will be there for the entire school year...

As soon as she left I was back to work....full time on the medical floor of the hospital...busy work.

Jeremy has at least one appointment a week but last week it was 2...on the same day...and I had ALL the kiddos with me....lets just say my kids should be used to doctor's offices by now...but they're not.

All I hear from the people around me is "your so strong", "I don't know how you do it", "Your supermom", "Your a good person to do all this"

But I feel like crap.I'm exhausted out of my freaking mind! I work 12 hour days, 3 days a week and have a 9 month old who still doesn't even slightly sleep through the night, a 2 year old who stays up until 11 pm most days and a 7 year old who's up at the crack of freaking dawn....I cant remember the last time I had more than 4 consecutive hours of sleep!

I'm not that strong, I can barely lift my toddler....oh you mean emotions couldn't even lift a milkshake at this point...and trust me I could use a milkshake.

You don't know how I do it...neither do I...and honestly I don't know what I do do. <-- : / My living room looks like someone tried to rob me, but obviously they only took one of each sock in my house and all the food. the laundry is mostly unwashed but what is washed is thrown in multiple baskets and wrinkled up , it requires "fluffing" to be worn. My kids may or may not get a bath every day.... But they do eat ALL THE FREAKING TIME! I spend more time in my car driving to and from appointments, stores and work than anything else in my life.

I'm supermom....ha...NOT!

I'm a good person to do I'm my child's mother and just like any mother I would do anything I could for them, no matter how big or small!

I'm just a mom who works her hiney off making sure we all make it to our dirty home, to our un-made beds with a full belly and only a little dirt on our faces......I'm just a mom.

Friday, June 7, 2013

They really do grow too fast...

I'm sitting on my couch right now...holding my precious 7 month old baby thinking about how this is the last time I'll have a 7 month old I can hold and sing to sleep....the last time I'll have a baby who is fully dependent on me to take care of his every need. I cried just a few minutes ago thinking about it(I'm a pretty emotional person but still...)

Were all so busy with trying to teach our kids new things and to help them grow up that we forget to just sit and work with them on what they already know....I mean I have a newly turned 7 month old who is cruising on furniture and getting ready to walk....where did my immobile baby who played on the ground without moving anywhere go? I don't think I want him to grow all.

My 2 year old spent the morning counting everything in target he told me all about the stuff around us...
"Mommy, there's a cute shirt for Jamie"

"Mommy I want a new batman toy....pleasssssse!" (He didn't get the toy even with his adorable cheesy smile...)

"Mommy can we buy pizza for lunch?"

I can't believe how talkative and smart he is and yet still such a "baby"

And then the big is Jeremy's last day of first grade....I just don't believe it....when did he grow up so much?! He started school not being able to all....he is now far above grade level, reading chapter books, he plays video games and even walks to friends houses to play...

I know we have to let them grow and trust me I love helping them but its times like right now while this sweet sleeping baby lays in my arms that I wish I could freeze time and stay right here forever....

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Mother's Day...

Mother's Day is supposed to be a day of rest and relaxation for us hard working moms...

Why don't I ever get that!?

My first mother's day was in 2007, honestly I don't remember it at all but I was a single mom to a one year old so I'm 99% sure I didn't get any gifts...

The past 4 mother's day I have been home with the kids because I have a husband who works as a waiter....he pretty much works 11 am-late into the freaking night...BUT he always makes good money (Thank you to everyone who waits in those crazy lines just to take their mama out to lunch : ) )

My morning started out interesting...

8 am-Woke up with the kids(I cant believe I got to sleep this late!!)

10 am-I was waking up hubby for work(he worked until 1:30 am so I let him sleep in) and all of a sudden there was a loud BOOM outside...and the power went out

10:15 am-Check Duke Energy's website and they say we'll be out of power until 1:30 after hubby got ready for work in the dark I got myself and the kiddos ready and we headed out the door at about 11...sometime while getting ready my hubby handed me some money and told me to schedule a pedicure and buy some new capris (this is what I asked for...)

I met my best friend for some shopping at The Baby Grocery Store because I won a $25 gift card from them last week(Hell Yeah!) and got my littlest man a new cloth diaper(CD), a shamrock Bottom Bumper
I haven't used it yet but its adorable!
After the store we decided to go to lunch but since most every decent restaurant would be crowded we decided on Steak N Shake....bad idea..
We got there and it was PACKED but we were able to get a booth right away. We ordered our food, then waited at least 30 minutes before Jameson woke up and smelled like poop. I ran out to the car to change him only to notice that there were no wipes in my car(hubby had brought them in the house the other day) SO I found ONE wipe in a pack I had left in the front console and headed back inside to eat...but I wanted to wash my hands first so I handed little man to my friend so I could.
I came out the bathroom to my oldest SCREAMING, I ran over and he had HOT melted cheese all down his leg. An employee was trying to clean it while apologizing. We got him cleaned up and I then looked at what was supposed to be a plain double bacon cheeseburger on my plate but was actually a single cheeseburger with everything...and no joke a half strip of bacon. SO then I had to return my food and get my order but as we did that the employee brought Jeremy out a Oreo ice cream sandwich : )
We finished our meal and got the hell outta there!
We ran by my dad and step moms house to drop off her gift and took a few pictures (the boys didn't want to corporate...)
and then we stopped by my MIL's house to give her her gift....
then we went home to the power being back on (thanks goodness)
Today was hard for me today too because this is my 3rd mother's day without my mom. She passed away in 2010 and I still can't believe it sometimes. It kills me that she only ever got to meet one of her grandsons. I know she's here with us in spirit though....Happy Mother's Day Mom!

Today was a crazy day but it was fun....I hope everyone had a wonderful Mothers day!

Saturday, May 4, 2013

My crazy(but I love them) Family

So here I am again....starting a blog. I plan to keep this one going because it gives me somewhere to write my non sense. I started my first blog about a year and a half ago....and made it all of 6 posts... : /

This will be different.

This first post will just be a little about me and my family. I'm a young mom to three sweet(and/or monsterous) boys, Jeremy(6),Jaxon(2) and Jameson(almost 6 months). Im married to Mark, a hard working dad who would do anything for his boys.

Jeremy, my oldest will be 7 in May...I still can't believe that. He's a huge sweetheart but is a bit of an oddball : ) He has a weakness for animals and babies....he loves to "take care of" them.

Then theres Jaxon, he turned 2 back in March and oh does he know how to show us about the terrible 2's. He's a BIG ball of energy(more like 10,000 balls of energy) and he loves to do what you tell him not to do BUT he has the most contagious smile that'll melt your heart every time.
Then there's my baby, Jameson(or Jamie as most people call him). He will be 6 months old tomorrow!(Holy crap!) He is my big eyed, curious little man. He has already taught me so many things in these past few months. He loves to cuddle and is learning how to get around already!

Id show you a pic of me and my husband....but we dont have any recent ones : ( (I'm going to add that to my endless to-do list)
Now for some funny and more realistic pictures of my family....